Since we had a long weekend, we decided to make the best of it and head to Hot Springs, Arkansas, to see Hot Springs National Park. Right after work we packed up and took off.
The first night at the hotel was rough. AE was bouncing off the walls and would not let anyone sleep. He refused to listen to anything AJ or I asked him to do. He was jumping on the beds and beating on the furniture, and after a restless night we continued on to Hot Springs.
Once we got there, we explored the area and AJ wanted to go into the springs. The problem was that they were all privately owned bathhouses and you had to pay to get in. Since AE was not old enough to go into them, that was not an option, so we ended up just driving around the National Park instead.
It felt like everything we wanted to do was something AE was not going to allow to happen. We did go to a wax museum, but that turned out to be a waste of money. We also found the National Park store where AE bought a bracelet. I think it was his third or fourth one of that same type.
We had planned to stay in a cabin at a KOA Campground for the entire weekend. We even had firewood delivered because we thought it would be nice to relax around the campfire and have some wine. That did not work out the way we had hoped. AE, even at twelve years old, still could not leave the fire alone without playing in it. I tried to ignore what he was doing and let AJ deal with it.
It was also too early in the year and there were no other kids around for AE to play with. That made everything worse because all he wanted to do was fish, with no place nearby to fish, and to keep playing with the fire. By that point the trip was already going downhill. We ended up cancelling the rest of our time at the KOA and headed to Oklahoma instead.
AJ was able to find us an Airbnb near Beavers Bend State Park. I think she could already tell that I was ready to just go home, so that first night she asked if I would find a local winery with her. We did a tasting, bought a few bottles, and brought them back to the house.
As AJ and I were trying to relax, AE kept going in and out of the hot tub. Because it was cold outside, he was tracking water everywhere and making the floor slippery. I did not say anything about it, but AJ seemed to be getting annoyed. Eventually we wrapped things up and went inside.
Of course, once we were inside, AE still tried to dictate what we were doing in the Airbnb. I ended up finishing the bottles of wine that AJ and I had started.
The next day we explored Beavers Bend State Park, and later that evening AJ and I picked up more wine since we were heading home the next morning.
That night AJ asked me if I knew where the bracelet AE had bought at the National Park store was. I told her that I had not seen it.
The next morning, while we were cleaning up, she found it in the bag where I keep my toiletries. The bag had been sitting in the bathroom, and I told her I had no idea how it got in there. She accused me of putting it there to hide it from AE.
She told me that no matter what I say, she does not believe that I did not put the bracelet in my bag. I am not sure she understands that I would not want to make the situation worse with him. If anything, I try to avoid doing things that would create more problems.
I also do not think she realizes the damage it causes when she treats me that way. It pushes me away from her, and it is starting to put a wedge between us.
The entire drive home she barely spoke to me. I think she may have said only three words the whole way back.