It’s been a while since I’ve written you one of these, and honestly, I’ve missed it. So much has happened over the past few weeks, and I feel like life’s been moving at full speed. We actually made it through another No Destination Vacation, and I think this one might be my favorite so far.
That moment, just sitting in the river with you, not saying anything, that was everything. No distractions, no rush, just you and me. It’s those moments with you that stick with me the most.
I’m glad we crossed Wind Cave off the list, even if it wasn’t all that exciting. I don’t think I’d ever go back.
Glacier was a completely different story. That time-lapse you got. It’s amazing. I know I’ll keep going back to that video, being in the right place, at the right time, with the right person. I’ll remember that view, and how it felt to be standing there next to you, for the rest of my life.
Yellowstone. I’m still trying to figure out the hype. I know there has to be more to it, I think we just didn’t give it enough time. Maybe next time we go back, we can slow down and explore a little deeper. And Old Faithful, it was cool to see, but I think I expected more from it.
And then there was Grand Teton. I don’t even have the right words for that place. The reflection in the lake, that hike to the falls? Every mile we spent in the car was worth it for that moment. Being up there with you made me feel so grounded and alive at the same time.
Back home, I’ve been noticing all the ways you’re turning this house into a real home. When you first moved in, it felt cold and empty. But you’re bringing so much warmth and life into it, and I love watching it all come together. You’re making it ours, and I appreciate that more than I can say.
I know I was a little off for a couple of days, and I appreciate you giving me the space to work through it. When you asked about postponing the wedding, I wondered if you were second guessing things. Just so you know, that thought hasn’t even crossed my mind. I’m ready. I want this. I want you. I can’t wait to put that ring on your finger and know you’re mine forever.
I’ve also noticed that something might be on your mind lately. You seem a little distant at times, but I promised you I wouldn’t push and ask, and I meant it. Just know that if you ever want to talk, I’m right here. No pressure. No expectations. Just me, always ready to listen.
You mentioned again that I might be reading your text messages. I want to be clear, I haven’t. I know I’ve said that you really don’t think I am, but hearing it again from you stings in a way that’s hard to explain. So, here’s what I’d like to do, I’ve already changed my passcode, and I think it would help if you changed yours too. Not because I don’t trust you, because I do, but to show you that I have nothing to hide and no interest in crossing that line. I think it’s the only way to help you feel secure about this.
The truth is, I’ve tried to be thoughtful and considerate, doing little things I believed would make you feel loved, but lately, it feels like some of those gestures come under suspicion. And that hurts, because it’s not who I am and never will be. I’m not bringing this up to argue or create distance. I just want you to know, I trust you. Fully. I don’t need or want to look at anything on your phone. I just don’t know what else I can do to prove that.
You’re the love of my life. That hasn’t changed, and it never will. You’re everything to me.
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