Yesterday AJ and I were having a really good day, until things suddenly changed.
I remembered that CJ was supposed to start receiving funds again from his dad’s GI Bill. He had actually received money about a month earlier, but that had been hidden from me because he still owes me money for the car I bought for him a few months ago. When things like that happen, it makes me question why I was not told and what else might not be getting shared with me.
Last night I asked AJ why I had not been paid before the money was sent to him, since we had all agreed on how the payments were supposed to work. I was supposed to receive $1,150 this month. That included $800 for the money I loaned him to repair the car and $350 for the monthly car payment.
I asked her if he planned on making that payment. She told me that I would only be getting the $350 and not the full $1,150 that was owed.
CJ is already months behind on payments because he stopped going to class and lost his VA stipend. His dad had to pay money back just to get the stipend started again. After I got upset about the situation, I was given $1,000 for the month.
This whole car situation is putting a lot of strain on AJ and me. I am starting to feel like I am being used by both of them. I hate even thinking that way about someone who is supposed to be my wife, but when I am expected to pay for nearly everything it starts to build up. It is not just the house expenses, but also helping support her kids.
She sometimes says that I do too much for AS, but the truth is that I have not given my son a single dollar in well over a year.
From where I sit, it feels like she is using most of her paycheck to support CJ, who refuses to support himself, while whatever the house needs ends up falling on me to cover.
Nothing like going to be angry and upset and having a sleepless night.
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