I’m really happy that you appreciate the idea of these letters, this mix of journaling and love notes that let me share what’s going on in my head and heart. It means the world to me to know that you’re open to this, not just as something for me, but as something for us.
Writing them gives me a way to untangle the overthinking that so often gets the best of me. It helps me slow down, take a breath, and put my thoughts into something meaningful, something you can hold, read, and reflect on. It brings me peace, and in a way, it brings me closer to you.
What I love even more is that we can actually talk about the things I write. That these aren’t just words on a page, but starting points for real conversations. That kind of emotional connection, where we can be open, honest, and vulnerable with each other, is something I’ve always hoped to find in a partner. And I’ve found it in you.
I really hate that I’m an overthinker. It’s something I’ve struggled with for so long. Sometimes the noise in my mind gets so loud that it drowns out the present and pulls me back into the past. And the worst part is, my mind doesn’t always go to the good moments, it gravitates toward the painful ones. I replay things I wish I could forget, almost like I’m stuck in a loop I didn’t ask for.
I catch myself wondering why. Why revisit the things that hurt? Why does my brain cling to the negative instead of holding on to the beautiful memories, the moments that made me feel loved, safe, and happy? Those are the moments I want to remember. Those are the ones that deserve to live rent-free in my mind, not the ones that cause doubt or pain.
I don’t ever want to give you a version of me that’s filled with nothing but intrusive thoughts. You deserve more than that, you deserve peace, love, joy… the best of me.
Since our conversation this past weekend, my mind has been quiet. Truly quiet. For the first time in a while, the noise has faded, and it’s been so peaceful, so freeing. I’ve been able to breathe, to think clearly, to feel present. And that feeling, that quiet, has been wonderful. Thank you for helping create that space.
I really did have a great time this weekend down in Galveston. It was one of those trips that, even with a few hiccups, reminded me how much I enjoy just being with you. Honestly, the only downside was the cost, but I’m sure if we plan it out better next time, we can definitely make it work and go back.
One thing I’m especially excited about is looking into the sea turtle release. I’m going to do some research and make a plan for us to go next year. I was so looking forward to capturing some photos this time around. We’ll make it happen.
I’m really excited to be getting the car this week. I think it’s going to be a great move for us, especially with how much gas we go through on longer trips. It’ll definitely make things more efficient and hopefully save us some money in the long run.
And I know I’ve already said this, but I want to say it again: I’m genuinely happy that you are going to be getting the car you’ve been wanting. That matters to me more than anything. Seeing you excited about it makes me even more excited.
I know you’re feeling nervous about Corbin and his upcoming court dates, and I completely understand why. It’s a lot to carry. I want you to know that I have faith that things are going to work out in his favor. I truly believe that. And while I know there’s probably nothing I can say that will fully ease your mind right now, I still want to remind you, you’re not going through this alone. I’m here with you, every step of the way, and I’ll keep holding on to that hope for both of you.
Aaric really frustrated me today at the doctor’s office, he pushed my buttons more than usual. I ended up taking his Xbox mic away, and I’m sure he’s going to try and wear everyone down just to get it back. We’ll probably need to brace ourselves and stay strong together, because giving in too quickly won’t help in the long run. It’s tough, but I know we’ve got this. Consistency is key, even when it’s annoying.
Today, my wedding ring came in—and I can’t tell you how excited I am. I’m really looking forward to seeing it in person and making sure it fits just right, in just a few short months, I’ll be wearing it for good.
Come October, when we say “I do,” that ring won’t just be a symbol, it’ll be a promise, a beginning, and a reminder of everything we’ve building together. I can’t wait for that moment.
I love you with all my heart, fully, deeply, and without hesitation. You are my everything, and every part of me is wrapped in the love I feel for you.
Drifted Notes 