I’m so happy and excited that we were able to get you the car you truly wanted. Seeing you light up made the whole experience even more special for me. I really hope yesterday felt meaningful for you, because you deserve moments like this, where everything feels right and just for you
And I’m especially excited to be giving you something meaningful today as one of your early birthday gifts. I’ve been looking forward to this moment, and I can’t wait to see your reaction and hear what you think. It means a lot to me to be able to share this with you.
I want you to know that I’ve still been writing these letters to you. They’ve become a way for me to process everything swirling around in my head, especially the more intrusive thoughts that I don’t always know how to say out loud. But I’ve been hesitant to give them to you, mostly because of how raw they are, and how much noise they come from.
What’s been weighing on me even more is this quiet fear I can’t shake, that maybe you’ve mentioned them to KH since you talk and share a lot with him or even joked about them. I know that might sound irrational, but it’s just something I feel deep in my gut, and it adds another layer to the hesitation. These letters are deeply personal, and I guess I’m afraid of them being misunderstood or shared beyond us.
I love you with every ounce of my being.
Drifted Notes 