I want to sincerely apologize for suggesting that you might be sharing these letters with KH. That was an intrusive thought, one of those unwanted feelings that can sneak in and distort reality. I hate how they sometimes get in the way of what’s actually happening between us. I know the last letter upset you, and that’s never what I want. I’m truly sorry. I’m continuing to work on myself, learning how to recognize and manage these thoughts better. The last thing I ever want is for anything, even my own mind, to come between us.
I know I said last night that I was going to stop writing these letters. But the truth is, I think you really do appreciate them, and they’re a form of journaling for me. They help me process what I’m feeling, and they’ve become a way to capture the life we’re building together. One day, I imagine us looking back at these moments, reading these words, and remembering all the little things that made our love story so special.
And speaking of special, I truly believe the song I had made for you this time fits us perfectly. Hearing that you want to have part of the lyrics printed and hung in our home meant the world to me. If there’s a particular line that stands out to you, something that really captures our love, let me know. I’d love to have it printed over one of our photos and made into something lasting, maybe even on metal, something beautiful to hang up and see every day.
And just so you know, I feel comfortable with Amy knowing about these letters. Honestly, I think her and Anthony’s relationship might even benefit from the idea of writing each other letters. I had no idea how helpful this would actually be for me until I started doing it.
If you’re ever open to writing letters too, I’d love that. It really helps to process things more clearly, and I believe it can open up conversations between us that might not happen otherwise. There’s something powerful about putting thoughts into words, something freeing.
Just know that no matter what I’m going through or what thoughts are weighing on my mind, my love for you never wavers. I love you with every ounce of my being. I’m sorry that I tend to overthink, I know it can make things heavier than they need to be. But through it all, what remains constant is how deeply I want to spend my life with you. I’m looking forward to growing old by your side and proudly calling you, my wife.
I love you more than I will ever be able to show you.
Drifted Notes 